MISTAKES

Intoxication
Mild inebriation
My vision is hazy
And I almost act the way I almost wish it was.

And I do, but I don't
and I wonder why
I am so unwilling
to let the world fulfill me

I suppose
that I am not depressed
my feelings less repressed
but I falter

I pay the price
against intention
but for my actions
and hope they all forget, forgive

And why should they not
for I hardly remember
and I must try
to remorse

Symbol
Imagination
Fantasies revealed
devoured and lost

Once
I had innocence
but of it I've forgotten
and for it I am cursed

I
imagine my own existance
construct my own depression
endlessly

Arousal
Community
Shatter glass
Glory and pestilence